Well guys, here is the lowdown of what is going on in this current moment in time. I am a mess, anxiety attacks had hit me for the better part of last week and I have barely managed to have anytime for myself. I simply became overwhelmed, of my own doing. I had almost stopped inputting my feedback because of the sheer stress I put myself under. Worst of all I have pretended to act like it doesn't phase me, not because I don't enjoy what I do but because I feel like all this testing and I have had little to no difference in getting forgers the respect they deserve. I am surrounded by people all the time but I feel like I am alone in this which is odd to be honest, as I shouldn't feel that way. Because this community has uplifted me at times when I never see it coming, and I am thankful. You people are my fellow designers, comrades and most of all, my friends. I have too many to count and keep track of, it honestly gets me how much I can't keep up with it but I try. So as senseless as all this is, as much as I would like to call it quits and be done with it, I won't. I refuse to stand idle, sit on my hands, have my thumb up my ass or whatever metaphor you want to use it doesn't matter. Because I know you will all be waiting, patiently and understandably so. In that being said, I will be running my lobby tonight and tomorrow but starting at 6:30 as I need more time during the day. I love this community too much to throw in the towel now. All I will ask is some patience because whether or not I decide to disappear for a while, I'll be back to finish the fight. I will have a list of maps I will be running shortly and afterward I will be throwing a 4v4 Christmas throwdown to help catch up on maps I have not been able to get to. So post them up, because tonight is young and I want to see ground zero of the community's imagination. Sincerely, Xdemption
Well it's not test-ready (no spawn or weapons placements) but I'd love some critical analysis of my WIP with associated gametype, Subzora and Environmental Slayer. If anyone wants to take a look at it and help me figure out if I'm at a certain stage of forging this map, if there are specific ideas to improve it before moving on to spawning and weapons, or if I should just scrap the project and restart, I'd appreciate the more advanced set of eyes.
Remember last spring when you first started talking about launching your lobby and I started leaning on you to join ATN (which at that time was essentially just Duke and Max)? I've told you 100 times since then my friend, you cannot personally foster every promising forger and map on xbl. And no one is expecting you to. The fact that an old skool forger with your pedigree is even willing to run a lobby is service enough and far and away from what most people are willing to offer. Take as much time for yourself as you need and know that we are all grateful to have you as a resource and a friend.
Sorry to hear, but dude... Join the party. As one person with crippling anxiety issues to another, I understand the feeling, but ain't gonna get any sympathy from me. Glad you're gonna soldier on and push through it though. Props to that.
Yea man, don't forget to take some time for yourself. I find it relaxing to just play random playlists or do stupid things in Forge to ease the mind. The community owes a service to you and the rest of whomever tests maps. Remember the Reach days when no one would test or it was only forgers that did? Times have changed and you have had a huge impact for the lifespan of Halo 5. Keep your chin up man, you're awesome and keep being awesome you wild turkey.
We're privileged to have someone like you Demption. You do such fantastic work bringing the best community content to the surface. Thanks to your lobbies we have tons of 4v4 maps that are ready for a 4v4 playlist if we could only get 343 interested in one. As a token of our appreciation, I'll be gifting you any gold REQ's that come may way
Hey man, if you need to back off for a bit, go for it. Damaging your health for us, while supremely flattering, isn't a good thing. Anyone who thinks otherwise is either blind or a major douche. Keep it up, but more importantly, keep yourself up!